..and there i was

…and there I was shocked beyond belief, dumbfounded at what had just happened. Stupidly assuming that everything was ok, that everything was over…but I was stuck there looking at the mess, the darkness the silence the only thing I felt nothing else, suddenly everything is numb….there was so much I felt, there was so much I thought but now all I feel is emptiness. Emptiness filling the space, like I would never have imagined…and all around me is this quiet that is inexplicable, this haunting calm that contrasts my inner thoughts. My screaming lungs which no one can hear. My racing mind under a calm façade…but it fools no one .no one would ever know…no one would even think what has happened…
The color pink suddenly, what is this color surrounding me how did everything change so much. The world is different or are my eyes looking at everything differently…
The sound of my heart pounding so loud…something no one can ever hear…something only I can feel.
A life without brotherhood… a life without care is all I see around me…screams of pain, cries and shrieks surrounding me, blinding me…nothing I can do nothing I can feel.
Like waves, like the tide that reaches its epitome, its extreme till it can fly no more and then it ends….the silence…that’s all there is………….



The passage basically toils around the conclusion; there is no introduction of the character. It only talks about the effect; there is no mention of the actions, of the consequences. I write this way because I don’t really know how and why I feel certain things. I have never had any extreme heart wrenching experiences, hence my writings are inexplicable. Organic structuring is basically metaphors used for non living objects.
I write in such a way because I want the subjective nature of my feeling to sound objective and I like to create mystery, otherwise everything is just point blank in the open. If I write like this everyone has their own interpretation too.